For myself, it's something I have to do. And granted it isn't the best time in the world to begin a journey such as this, but putting it off will get me nowhere.
*sigh* Writing about it just makes me hate myself more it seems. So I'll stop.
And this post is vauge for a reason. And the reason behind this post will not be known for some time. And you might not care, which is probably for the best. And this post isn't directed to anyone but myself.